I visited Batam last weekend, basically just going for shopping and massage. It was really good and I quite enjoyed the trip. My working life has not easy now, very busy and sometimes I wanted to make a trip to release myself from busy life. That's why I am looking forward for national's day long weekend.
In Batam, there were a lot of cheap stuffs. I not really know how to manage the cash. Especially, when I exchange S$150.00, which equals more than 1 million Rupiah. The numbers are too big and quite confusing to use it.
The long weekend of Singapore's long weekend falls on second weekend of August. I already took 2 days off for the trip to Phuket Island, Thailand. I have to go to National Library to check out some information, especially from Lonely Planet (one of my favourite publisher for traveling tips).
I gonna sleep soon. It has been very busy day for me today- I even don't have time for restroom, almost forgot about time for lunch and stress out. I need more rest and get ready for tomorrow.
It's July! I missed a lot of time to get onto here. Now, I am realized that it is not easy to work in the bank. I love challenging job but not as busy as I thought. I am not only have to get used of the system but also a lot procedures to follow.
I alternate between two branches and I am getting more confident in handling the documents if compare to last few weeks.
Yes, I am banker now. I repeat that: I am banker now!
I am still cannot believe that I am banker now, without any certificates of banking and finance background and am attending 1 month training since 2 weeks ago. Banking and finance is known as the conservative industry and it is true. I have to wear nicely and limited accessories allowed.
Throughout this month, I need to attend few examination and non exempt MUST pass all the papers that I sit for. I am very exciting but at the same time, I hope I able to get through all the papers. It was Malaysian bank and now expand their network in Southeast Asia, including Singapore, Thailand and Indonesia.
The economic is quite odd. They think that the best time to do investment and expansion is when the market is quiet. I do agree with them and see it as opportunity. When GM declared the bankruptcy, I was expecting that the market share will be crash again. However, it doesn't happened. Strangely, it increased and at the meantime the properties in Singapore begins to pick up and price is increasing slowly make the buyers nervous about the valuation price.
For now, I only hope that I could pick up everything and get ready for banking and finance industry. And of course, I'm glad in the position now and wish to grow BIG with them.
Thanks for everyone's concern about my previous post. The issue has been settled quite some times ago and I'm glad that I brought the unsatisfactory of me onto the table and talked face to face with him. It was not his intention but I still take it as his fault. And again, I take away our picture in my purse and decided not to put the relationship as priority no matter I do. So that, I won't hurt that much or I think that I am stupid because of something I don't feel great.
Everything goes well now and now I am taking 2 weeks off as he go back to his country. I feel kinda relief and great to be alone for a while. I mean good for our relationship and see how much will we missing each other. Of course obviously quite a lot when I am alone.
I run through his wallet last night and not feel comfortable with it. I found a picture of a cheerful smiling girl in his wallet. Immediately, there are a lot of doubts of his love towards me. I wanna ask him but I didn't. I kept it to myself and want to digest it for a while if I really can accept that.
I don't know who she is, where she from, etc. I only know that the picture is taken at one of Starbuck in Singapore. I not sure he is being dishonest to me. I had tried to ask him but I can't get any answer from him. I guess he don't know why am I asking those silly questions.
Of course I knew that he will get upset with me of run through his wallet. But I didn't checked it on my intention. I was just trying to tidying the notes and retrieving my laptop underneath of the wallet. Too many things crossed my mind. The conversation last night makes me think that it is no possibility we will be together to the end, as he said, "I am thinking about if there is possibilities to get together in the end and the future." I don't know what should I do. I do love him but... I am happy to be with him but... I crossed the line and am giving everything. I can't turning back and the only way is moving forward to figure the how to solve the problem. Is there possible a guy kept a pic of another girl while he has a gf. He is telling me "I Love You" too frequent makes me scare and insecure. I am not type of girl that wanted to hear "I Love You" everyday, I am not type of girl who will ask "Do you love me?" I am not type of girl who likes to bossy around boyfriend. And I definitely not a type of girl who like to be busy- body! But my jealousy wipe away all the things that I am. How does it happens? How can I overcome the jealousy and pretending that I am ok with? I never put myself in this kind of situation. I used to be a girl who is not jealous at all with ex- and I wanna be that girl again- always cheerful, confident, strong, crazy and happy-go-lucky.
I begin to lose trust in love again. I don't know or maybe it is just wasn't enough.
My ex- called me couples days ago and asked if I am fine. I don't feel good of course. I am losing my job for ridiculous reasons after I done my best in every case. It torn my heart and my soul to work again. It is really torn my heart!! I afraid that I will losing everything that I have now. Everything that I have... everything that I couldn't imagine!! That's why I have made up my mind taking time off, not thinking about anything: career, relationship, travels, money, etc. I am getting tired of my life now.
I not sure why he tried to be nice or he is just miss me by telling me that he couldn't sleep at 4am in the morning. Please don't compare that your girlfriend is looks alike as me! Please don't tell me that. It's melt me and I was getting close to say "I miss you too!" And please don't try to be nice to me again. That's my choice to leave few years ago and I will not regret it.
Why you would keep me as your personal assistant? Is it just because you feel sympathy on me? or you are trying hard to help me to keep me here? Please leave me alone... and don't say you miss me, because it made me feel bad.
Usually, I will watch action or thriller movie in the cinema, especially from Hollywood. Last weekend, I went to cinema to watch the best movie of the year. I was quite surprise because it won the most Oscar awards and it was directed by a British director and all the casting is from India. Yes, it was 'Slumdog Millionaire'.
It was very interesting movie but it gave me an impression of how poor India is, how hard it was when people live in very poor condition and sad for the kids who lost their parents. Personally, I think it is a good and touch movie, just that I don't quite understand some of part of the storyline.
It was happy ending. The big brother sacrificed himself in the end, Jamal and Latika happily ever after and he gets rich too. So, how did Jamal wins the millions rupees? It is written!
I has been studying German one and a half year ago. Although I am still practicing it sometime, I am moving on to Korean now. One of the reason is because of my boyfriend, another reason is because for myself. I love to learn new things for my own good. At the same time, I think he might leave Singapore end of this year; I don't want he is the main reason I learn new language. It would gives me a big impact in my life if I think like that.
I started off with alphabets. It was tough, quite easy to write but very hard to pronounce as it has very own sound. Currently, I move on to simple words, such as things that we seen everyday (furnitures, clothes...) I hope I could speak and write those words in 1-2 weeks from now. I have get up and cope with all the new words. At least, I know how to say table, chair, bed, cupboard,computer, telephone, etc in Korean. Yahoooo!
I also bought a exercise book, cost me SGD 30.00. You have to see my korean book, it was like kindergarden book. It was cute and I feel like 5 years old again.
Other than learning Korean, I would like to crack my swimming skills this year. Ahh! And not forget on getting PSP Slim & Lite too to be one of my electronic collection.
I was very tired from work on last Monday. I started off my busy day since I stepped in to my office that morning, until I have the meeting with my new client at her company. My boyfriend wishes that I could come and meet him after he perm his hair. Of course I would love to if I could. After the meeting, I rushed back home and there were many emails pending for my respond and couple projects are on within that 2 hours meeting.
I turned on my company labtop while I was scooping out the rice from the cooker. Wow! I just knew that I can multitasking. Then, I began to reply emails one by one and called my suppliers to confirm the job for me. Things get fast and complicate. Some suppliers would like to negotiate the price rate and the client wouldn't compromise with the project delivery date. I can't imagine that I have so much things to do after the meeting and before meeting with my boyfriend. I went to change and finally ready to go out again. My adrenaline is still pumping and I still in rushing mood. I not quite sure if my boyfriend could understand. Maybe he just want to be nice, saying that he can come over to the mall nearby my place. But at that time, I don't understand. I was thinking he don't have patience to wait for me. I am very sorry for being so negative. I was waiting at the bus stop, my supplier keep texting me for price negotiation and my boyfriend was calling me 3 times in 15 minutes for checking. In the end, I was a bit angry. I called up my supplier and gave the final price. it's up to him if he wants to take it or not. I guess he knows that I am not good in mood. So, he agreed.
Of course I was very happy to meet him. He is looking good in his new hair style. But we argued on dining table. He get upset because I didn't help in the food which he don't know how to order (it's chinese food) and I picked up my dad's call on the phone. Honestly, I felt he is nonsense. He should pick the food that he wants, not by me. I guess he just want to have my suggestion. He get angry and threaten me that "let's leave" and he don't want to finish the meal. he showed me the face that makes me feel bad and guilty, like a little kid. Finally, I burst myself out from the busy day. All issues thrown out on his face. Somehow, I think that he is not understand me or he is not trying to understand me. Most of the issue that I deal with, he is giving me the example of his case. Somehow, I not sure if he is happy to be with me, although he is keep saying that he is. Date him is very different than my ex-. My ex- and I were mature, logical and plans for future. But with him, we are childish and sometimes I feel like teenager. But I do love him and happy to be with him.
Sigh.. since I have been working for 2 years, I never put myself into this kind of situation. What situation?? I scolded by my manager cruelly. Err.. Not really cruel, but he said I might be the next one to go. Previously, my ex-colleague has been working for the company since a year ago left the company in sudden. Because of her careless mistakes, the company decided to change the position and put her into probabtion period. Of course she is not happy and do not like much of the new job, that's why she left. I don't want to leave a company in this kind of situation. I wanted to leave in proud, for a good reason, etc.
The issues started when my engineer couldn't open the file from my client. Since I am already taking up the project, my boss says that it will be not good if we couldn't do it. I asked the client to give us sometimes to figure out. What a f**king file? Why we couldn't open the file? In the end, we figure out that it is the software issues. The client accepted well and they decide to do it in house. But I am in the very terrible position, the manager nag me a lot and he hopes that I can do better next time.
From that moment, whatever it takes I have a huge desire to leave Singapore. I was very negative and get hot- tempered easily. I blame myself for not taking good care of my project. I know if my engineer couldn't open the file, I can't do anything. But I still think that it is my fault. The worse case is my manager report to my big boss that it is my fault.
I really hope that i can do it good and do it right. I want to leave Singapore for a better reason and not because of I can't do the job properly. Of course, I am always what I am... always looking for opportunities for relocation and working in overseas. Gimme tips if you have one.
